An odd weekend.

M and I had to make a very difficult decision to rehome our little dog Tassel.  We took him to his new family yesterday.

I cried like someone died. It kinda feels like someone did. I can remember picking him out and up at eight weeks. He was my doggie. A sweet little lap companion.

But his needs are high and since I have been teaching, his quality of life with us hasn't been meeting those high needs. A six pound dog just can't be in a crate for ten plus hours.

Ivory can handle it because she is much lower maintenance.  She has been a bit off the past day but we think its probably because we are. She keeps kinda looking around like he may show up...

When we took him he just nuzzled his little head in my chest and looked up. I wonder if dogs can wonder if you're coming back for them.  I really hope not.

Keep me in your prayers. I really need them.

XOXO

Aud

Ooh la la la la la la la...

Grace Potter. How did I not become obsessed with her sooner? I've been listening to gp and the nocturnals all week and loving it! I've been trying to chill through my anxiety lately. Here's what I have been listening to:

1. Paris (and this entire album)
Grace Potter and the Nocturnals
I feel so empowered by her music. I just love it.
2. Chasing Pirates
Norah Jones
3. Hold You in My Arms
Ray LaMontagne (spelling?)
4. Jolene
As written by the above, as performed by ZBB
Love Zac Browns voice and his twist on this
5. Lie in our Graves
DMB
This is always uplifting to me. It's that you'll never know til you loosen up song.
6. Adele's 21 in its entirety
7. Green Eyes
Coldplay
8. Will You Return
Avett Bros
9. Just bought the new Incubus cd today... reviews to follow !
10. Hell on heels
pistol annies
Ta ta for now.

XOXO
Aud

Ps sorry for any crazy autocorrects as this was posted via DROID.

Computer Programmer by Day, Paranormal Investigator by Night?

Alternative Titles of This Post:

No More Ghost Hunters before bed...

When We Think Our Dreams are Real...

M Makes Me Laugh.

My Husband, The Alarmist.

Last night, we watched some Ghost Hunters on Sci Fi (nerd-gasm!) before falling asleep.  And if anyone should have been entitled to having a scary dream, it should have been me, who literally fell asleep during an investigation of a haunted castle in Europe.  However, this is M's story.  Let's be clear when I say my husband isn't necessarily a sleep talker... he occasionally mumbles during sleep, but I think we all do that, from time to time.

In the middle of the night, he jostles awake from sleep (OR WHAT LOOKED LIKE AN AWAKENED STATE**** this is a most important distinction.) and says "AUDREY Oh my God, do you see that???!" 

Groggy, unpleasantly surprised and irritated from being pulled from what was my rather pleasant dreamland (which was quite a nice and welcome vacation from my school anxiety dreams which have been plaguing me all summer long (i.e. no lesson plans, no class library, students leaving the room, being out of control... those are a whole other story)).... I said "what are you talking about?" 

"In the corner over there, do you see that shadow?"  At this point, I am a little spooked.  M is probably one of the most reasonable individuals I know, so I take his concern seriously.  I sit up in bed trying to establish the shadowing and shapes he is referring to by the door in our bedroom.  After a few moments of sleepy confusion, and what I could have sworn was M actually looking at me while I tried to negotiate this claim, I reply with a simple "I don't see anything, babe."

"Do you think our cameras will pick up that shadowing?  It's almost like what we saw in those other houses."  Let's be clear again- there are NO cameras of any kind in our bedroom- so hold thy comments. 

At this point, I realize that M is essentially talking and dreaming simultaneously.  With an appearance of being awake, this was a rare occurrence for us.  Now it's time to have a little fun...

"What kinds of things did we see in other houses?" I egged on, with a exhausted smile in the dark.

"Apparitions, shadows and beams of light. Don't you remember?" M has convinced himself of this reality.

"Are you sure I was there?  Because I don't remember being there..." I probed.

"You don't remember being there??" ::M shakes head in disappointment::

Too ashamed to go on, I say "I think you are having a dream."

"No I'm pretty sure I would know if this was a dream..."

End scene.

This morning, he remembers nothing about this event, or the dream sequence at all for that matter.  Does anyone else or anyone else's spouse or bedmate as the case may be, have perfectly lucid conversations and not remember them?

XOXO,

Aud

Three Posts in a Day... Unheard of!

So I am clearly feeling verrrrry chatty today.

Being OCD as I am, I have been scheming about my fall fashion...  Can I just say, fall is my favorite season to dress for?  I love the rich tones and hues... the weight of the textiles makes my heart do a little autumnal flutter.  And I am so ready for it.

First of all, QVC is fast becoming my preferred vendor.  Holy crap!  It all started with makeup, then I got into the home stuff and now, could it be?  I might be crossing into fashion.

Last night, I got raked into Isaac Mizrahi on Q (doesn't he also design a line in Tar-jay?)...Other than the purely comedic value of watching his fabulousness up there talking about clothes like a fashionista he is, he had some really beautiful fall staples.  I tots made a wishlist this morning of things I want to buy when I get money...
Um hello, fabulous brown and mustard scarf.  I must have you.

 I want this belt.  First of all, it's a stretchy belt.  Second, I love the equestrian look it has to it.  Thirdly, it's going to be great for belting anything.. dresses, cardis, tunics...

I have been searching far and wide for a fab trouser jean with a wide leg.  I can only remain hopeful that these may be them.  I do get sketched out ordering pants online, which are definitely the hardest to fit me in, even when they're tangible... but if you go by your measurements, it's usually nothing a tailor can't fix.

Believe it or not, I have never owned anything like this before.  This is a water repellent coat and the taupe color is just dreamy.  I keep envisioning this with the scarf.

Horizontal stripes... the infamous enemy of any person seeking a flattering fit.  I almost disagree here.  This is an iffy piece.  I feel like the V neck and length to cover the butt may be enough to trump conventional wisdom about stripes.  I think this boyfriend cardi is presh.

To balance a closet of casual and professional dress is challenging, but I have my eyes on these pieces that I am convinced can do both.

Cheers to fall!

XOXO,

Aud

Two Posts in a Day... Ambitious!

Lucky you... I'm not done talking!  Shocking, I know...

So as I last reported about a month ago (worst blogger ev!) I'm on the weight loss train.. and since then have, woohooo, lost 15 lbs!!

... and have now been the SAME WEIGHT for the past six days... I'm talking within two tenths of a pound every single day for the past week.  I don't know why that is considering I have been so freaking good.  It's a bit frustrating, but I know something has got to give sooner or later.

All I have wanted was something sweet today...from the moment my feet hit the floor I longed for something rich and decadent and filled with chocolate goodness.

Could have gone for a Bubblecake death by chocolate cupcake if I ruled the world... but alas, I settled for these Emerald Cocoa Roast almonds I bought for these very moments..  OMG they were awesome when you don't get to eat anything like this and they come in portioned 100 cal. bags which is somewhat a necessity for me...I ate each almond individually and savored the flavor.  FML. What a desperate nerd I have become.



XOXO,

Aud